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Monday, December 21st, 2009
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vampedvixen
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We had yet another Buffy marathon today. The longest string of episodes yet! We watched most of season 4, ate pineapple pizza, drank soda and contemplated going out in the 2 feet tall snow banks. We decided against that last one.
I didn't mean to stay here another couple of days, but I stormed out of my house after getting into a fight with my mom.. and then I stepped two steps out the door, realized it was snowing much harder than I thought and went, "Well.. damn, I either leave and march off into the snow storm of doom to my death, or I go back with my tail between my legs and pretend I didn't just leave in a huff." I choose the snow storm of doom.
Today's Quote comes from Doomed (episode 11 of the 4th season):
Spike: Buffy fights the forces of evil. You’re her groupies. She’d do just as well without you – better I’d wager, since she wouldn’t have to go about saving your hides all the time.
Xander: That is so not true! We’re part of the team. She needs us.
Spike: Or you’re just the same tenth grade losers you’ve always been, and she’s too much of a softy to cut you lose.
I think Joss Whedon lives in my head, cause that dialogue pretty much came from my inner monologue. I should probably be saying "Huh.. Evil Dead and my negative monologue are agreeing with each other.. they obviously cannot be right or know stuff or be allowed to exist for much longer!" Instead I'm going, "Dude, Spike is smart, he says true things. A-huh!".
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Sunday, December 20th, 2009
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theloa
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Another year and nothing has changed. Or everything - depending on your point of view. It's getting to be a bit unreal. 37? Does not compute.
I threw a birthday party yesterday for some of my friends. Those who weren't knee deep in Christmas preperations, children and illnesses. I made a mess of making mojitos and completely screwed up a chocolate fondue. Then we had cheese. And finished the rum. So it was all good.
With this out of the way I can finally finish all the Christmas stuff looming.
Also - a good thing I'm getting a new kitchen soon - since after last night I most likely will have to set fire to the current one. Sticky. Sugar. Everywhere!
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Saturday, December 19th, 2009
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vampedvixen
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| Time: | 1:36 pm. |
| Mood: |  worried. |
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Dollhouse was really good last night, but I think my favorite part was when Ballard's body got rebooted and he flailed around the room a lot crazily, and was learning to talk in garbled tongue like "whabafaf whaaaatahag whaaat di--d ouuu doo ou me?!" Mostly, because upon waking up early at Boglin's house and flailing around crazily and trying to learn how to talk again, I realized that that's how I am when I wake up too.
I stayed up last night talking with Randy and Boglin. I'm not even sure what we were talking about.. but staying up late with my friends and having weird conversations is one of my favorite things in life.
And speaking of late night conversations, my favorite late night conversationalist Nicholai might be stopping by today. I hope. He's going to see how snowy it is and how much of a treacherous drive it would be. I'm all excited. I haven't seen him in years. And I hate the snow for even suggesting the possibility that even though we finally planned stuff and got our schedules to line up, it may not happen. I've been cursing the snow ever since I woke up because of such.
I also may see Nolan today. Survey is still out on that. I wanted to set up a betting pool but no one would go in with me.
Damn you snow, damn you to hell.. where you would melt and rain down in chaotic doom. Why must you ruin my plans??!
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Friday, December 18th, 2009
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I think the nearest thing we ever got to a Richard Curtis episode of Buffy was 'Amends'.
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Thursday, December 17th, 2009
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thestormcellar
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I've been listening to Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand via audio book. It's interesting, and kind of surreal given the current state of our American economy. And while I don't agree with some of the philosophies and "logics" touted within, some of them are strikingly accurate portrayals of the various American mindsets.
I can't really recommend the book to anyone, unless you are willing to either listen to the full 63 hrs on audio (like I have been), or to slog through pages upon pages of dry philosophy and prose and dialog. I think the only reason I've been able to keep listening is that the narrator has been making the text far more engaging than it would have been had I read it on the page.
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vampedvixen
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| Time: | 2:28 am. |
| Mood: |  pessimistic. |
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I can't even listen to the talk of rebuilding things anymore. People let me down and then just expect me to put the pieces back together after everything's demolished.
"Hey guys, this is fun, let's keep breaking things and expecting them to just be fixed like magic."
I don't want promises, I've been made promises by them so many times in the past.. I want actual action on their part. I don't want to get hurt anymore.
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Wednesday, December 16th, 2009
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vampedvixen
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| Time: | 3:55 am. |
| Mood: |  exanimate. |
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BUFFY: I don't even know who he is any more. I mean, I thought he was... dependable.
XANDER: Dependable? What is he, State Farm?
BUFFY: You know what I mean.
XANDER: Yeah. I think you mean convenient. I think you took it for granted that he was gonna show up when you wanted him to, and take off when you didn't.
Is that all people are to each other anymore.. just convenient? So many examples, so many people, on boths sides of the equation.. I need sleep.
My life = Buffy.
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vampedvixen
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I really need to learn how to better communicate. A lot of times when I'm angry, all I can do is focus on the anger and everything just comes out, "Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you and FUCK YOU!" or "*insert 40-page long diatribe about how the world done me wrong*".
I just spent two hours on the Pederson Krag chat program, talking to someone who after I put a jumbled mess of words, she came up with, "It seems like you're hurt because such and such." And it was so much more logical than my rant.
Simple. Clean. Efficient.
I need to learn how to do that. Especially if I'm going into this field.
I think it's easier when I'm doing it for other people.
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Tuesday, December 15th, 2009
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vampedvixen
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| Time: | 10:21 pm. |
| Mood: |  pensive. |
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The store sent my mother TWO airhockey tables instead of one when she ordered one for the kids. They only billed her once, so she's debating giving the other one to me and my sister. A free $100 gift for us :)
The head coach of Centereach got fired today for some kind of scandal that's been covered up pretty well by the heads of the school. My sister, who was the assistant coach, is now becoming the head coach.. it's a huge promotion and a lot more money, but she's scared of taking it on. I told her if she didn't want the job that was pretty much handed to her, I'd take it, heh.
She has to take some of her field and track team up to Rhode Island for a meet on December 29th & 30th. She doesn't have anyone to chaperone, so she's asking me to come along. It's a free trip, all expenses paid by the team's budget. And I get to yell at the kids and play teacher if they're not being good. It'll be weird hanging out with a bunch of high schoolers again though.
With this trip and the fact that I'm rewatching old school Buffy, it's like someone is telling me "you gotta go get reschooled". Heh. Or maybe I read too much into things.
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vampedvixen
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Sorry for the massive quote post. I've just moved onto Buffy Season 4 and as the three of us were watching The Freshman, Boglin and I realized that Joss Whedon is writing our lives. I promised I would point out the similarities here:
Giles: I still don't see where I fit in. You haven't described anything that you can't do yourself.
Buffy: Ok, remember before you became Hugh Hefner when you used to be a watcher
Giles: Officially you no longer have a watcher. Buffy, you know I'll always be here when you need me. Your safety is more important to me than anything but, you're going to have to take care of yourself. You're out of school and I can't always be there to guide you.
Buffy: I'm sorry to bug you.
Giles: Buffy, I...
Buffy: Oh! No! I mean yeah, you're... you're right. I can handle it. It's just that... I'm on it.
*later*
Xander: And you're sitting here alone at the Bronze looking like you just got diagnosed with cancer of the puppy.
Buffy: It's just... there was this vampire, and she took me down, and I just... I don't know how to stop her.
Xander: Then where's the gang? Avengers assemble! Let's get it going!
Buffy: No, I don't want to bug them. I mean they're just starting school, and they don't need this.
(Where is my Xander..? *pouts*)
*even later*
Kathy: Does Buffy have a history of emotional problems? 'Cause on my request form I was pretty specific about a stable non-smoker.
Willow: I bet there were circumstances! We've probably been so wrapped up in our own petty lives that... that we totally missed the circumstances. We're bad friends!
*which brings us to.. later.. after the big battle of the episode, when Giles finally shows up to fight*
Willow: Hi, Giles.
Xander: What's with the arsenal?
Giles: I've been awake all night. I know I'm supposed to teach you self-reliance, but I can't leave you out there to fight alone. To hell with what's right, I'm ready to back you up. Let's find the evil a-and fight it together.
Buffy: (sarcastic) Great! Thanks! We'll get right on that.
We were basically squealing through the whole episode and pointing at the tv going, "Joss Whedon, you are writing my life!"
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Monday, December 14th, 2009
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vampedvixen
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| Time: | 6:03 pm. |
| Mood: |  calm. |
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I am wrapping presents today. It's probably the only thing about the holidays I truly enjoy. I love spending an hour or two wrapping them up in bright colors and playing with the curling ribbon. My family gets me to wrap up their stuff they're giving other people too. Sometimes the neighbors bring their stuff they need done too. It's a win-win situation. I get to relax by wrapping stuff up and they get one more task they really didn't want to do crossed off their list.
I slept for 13 hours last night. I dreamt about werewolves and regency times, everyone was happy.. I think I work things out in my dreams more easier than I can in waking life. I'm not sure what conclusions I reached last night, but I always know I had a powerful dream by the clear-headedness that follows. As a result, my brain finally shut up after five days of it driving me crazy with negative thinking. And the rest is silence.
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Sunday, December 13th, 2009
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vampedvixen
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Faith: Yeah, well you can't trust people. I should've learned that by now.
Buffy: I realize this is gonna sound funny coming from someone that just spent a lot of time kicking your face... but you can trust me.
Faith: Is that right?
Buffy: I know I kept secrets, but I didn't have a choice. I'm on your side.
Faith: I'M on my side, and that's enough.
I empathize with Faith in this scene SOOOOOOOOOO much. And I also think Buffy was full of shit, she wasn't on her side. Hell, as I was watching the season, I realized that Buffy was pretty much setting Faith up to be the fallguy. Sure, Faith struck the final blow, but Buffy was there too. She was pretty much an accomplice to the breaking and entering/robbery earlier in the episode, and possibly (depending on how the law is worded.. I'm not sure) an accomplice to the murder of an innocent. Faith went deeper into her dark side, but Buffy was still there for much of the ride.
The show plays it off though.. and Buffy walks away free. Because, she's the main character and wouldn't be very useful to future plot arcs of the show if she went to jail.. but upon watching this again lately, it just left me feeling a little cheated by the plot development.
And that's my Buffy rant of the day.
I'm gonna go finish putting up the Christmas tree now. Byes.
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Hope everyone in LJ Land is having a great holiday season.
I may never post, and rarely respond, but I look forward to reading your posts each day :)
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vampedvixen
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Oh.. I forgot to talk about something good that happened last week.. a friend of mine's family was going through a rough spot. I shared what I learned from several mentors of mine, my program and a lot from my social work background. I think I helped them out a lot. They even called me an angel. It was really good to remember that I have expertise in AN area, and I'm not as horrible a counselor as I think.. and that maybe this dream of going into the field isn't a complete waste of time.
Also, about the field: I regularly go up to school to check out the job listings they have posted there. On one of these occassions, a week or two ago, I ran into a teacher of mine. She asked how things were going and I wasn't in a good mood, so I told her that getting my Masters in Social Welfare might have been a horrible, horrible mistake because now I know what people are thinking and I HATE having this much insight. It's like with Buffy in Earshot, when she is cursed with the power of hearing what EVERYONE around her is thinking, and it quickly drives her crazy because it's just too much.
My teacher laughed and said that being a social worker doesn't mean I have telepathy. I have, what she called, "better hunches".. but that doesn't mean I don't have to get the evidence necessary to back up my theories. It's more like being a detective, and thinking you know who did it, but without getting the proper evidence (and getting it in the right ways) the courts would throw the case out.
I asked her how I go about getting this evidence, and she simply said, "Ask them. Back up your theories by asking people for the truth."
"So, I still have to ask people what they're thinking?" I asked, completely dumbfounded.
She laughed again, and I think if we knew each other outside of a professional work setting, she would have pat me on the head and said something akin to, 'They grow up so fast.'
I didn't ask her how I would know if they're lying.. I was still trying to wrap my brain around the idea that I didn't know everything just by having hunches about everything. A lot of my teachers are just.. AMAZING, for lack of a better term. They say such eye-opening things and then I have to wait a month or two before speaking to them just so I can catch up to their brilliance and digest what they've said while my brain goes, "Dur.. I am stoopid."
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Saturday, December 12th, 2009
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I bought blue porn! FTW!.
thirsty.
stupid lj.
lalala.
WTF?!.
eating lunch.
cheerful.
contemplative.
gonna go beds soon.
complacent.
geeky.
tada!.
*proud of all Women Vets*.
thoughtful.
refreshed.
*headachy*.